10 Seconds last an Eternity
air goes thin and palms stick together
waist feels tighter than usual and limbs freeze
shivering with a pang of cold reverberating from my heart
a bolt fastening my chest and fingers going weak
voice dry with the taste of regret
close the floodgates. for the love of god close them.
forces pressed upon my skull with a growing warmth
it’s like it’s still happening
it’s like I can feel it
I can still feel everything
on loop again and again, the noise louder each time
the steady beat of the drum
booming sounds and sharp noises poking through my insides
spiders for an esophagus
golfball lodged in back of my throat
stomach of acid, spine of stone
waterfalls and earthquakes
sandstorms and tsunamis
which one is the natural disaster
who adjusted the speed
why now, why me
the wick lighting in my veins and
and
and
…the camera was on.