All the best
If you were my friend,
I imagine you’d message me before I messaged you,
a question or a quiery, something a bit risky to send,
a joke or a memory, a misinterpreted comment you’d have to defend,
In the middle of the day, before lunch,
an early “good morning” text,
ask me how my day was,
ask me what I have to do next,
When I walk into a room, maybe you’d turn and make fun of my hair,
laugh that I’m, once again, late,
start a heated arguement about something completly irrelevent,
turn the class into a fully-fledged debate,
Maybe you’d look at me when we have to pick partners,
maybe I’d look for you too,
then we’d lock eyes and just know,
that we had already chosen depsite not knowing what we were supposed to do,
Your seat would be just a bit too far from mine,
enough that we’d have to project,
all while knowing the distance wouldn’t stop us,
and that we were the class’s most entertaining duo, last I checked,
I’d walk in on a casual day matching with you,
and you’d sashay and strike the dumbest pose,
and I’d waltz across the room to match your unmatchable energy,
but trip and accidently fall over you, laugh on the floor together, completly un-composed
We could talk for hours on end about absolutely nothing,
or sit in silence, our hands in each others,
I’d lie my head on your shoulder,
and without fail, someone would say something sappy about not having one another,
You’d come find me when I disappeared to the bathrooms after a test,
gently knock on the stall door and say my name,
and I’d come out with teary eyes, pink cheeks,
and without any words, we’d sit down together and cry out of pure shame,
When one of us would have bad days,
we’d ask to sit in a call together,
avoid the elephant in the room if we felt like it,
and hype each other up until we somehow felt better,
We’d never have to ask if we were still friends,
we could be apart for what is probably too long,
be busy with other things,
but find eachother again, as if the other was never gone.
If you were my friend, then maybe, we could be something like that,
but I’ll never be able to be with you in the same way,
you believed something I wish you didn’t,
and maybe thats why this seems like it’s going to end.
maybe one day.
maybe my mind is overthinking and maybe I’m just stressed,
I wish you luck if this is goodbye.
I wish you all the best.